Was it love? Or was it just a temporary emotion?

The love of my life……

I found him, then I ran. Lol

I sped to the nearest exit.

He was young but made my day. 

All I have now are beautiful memories, but it can work. I end up with a smile on my face.

We spent two months living together, we were engulfed into each other’s’ personalities, facial expressions, smiles, eye contact and touch. 

Sleeping together was something I personally looked forward to, he looked forward to finding new foods. Which I enjoyed also.

In total silence he took my comfort level to the peak, keeping a smile on my face and my hand warm intertwined with his. 

Everything was so perfect, something I never experienced. Something that in my 33 years never felt love or if this is what love was. 

I experienced my first bunch of roses, secret smiles, the constant impulse to buy the things I need.

He is just but a memory now. He is not dead. But I after what we experienced, I know things will never be the same.

I pulled away cause that’s the only thing I knew, I built walls to my heart, he never understood nor had the time to understand. Made me wonder if it was love after all? 

But, I finally experienced true love. Now, I know what it is. 

The cancer patient that have experienced, a closeness to motherhood, true love, friendship.

Now, we don’t speak, but one thing I know, just from looking at my parents, a relationship really can’t have three people in it. 

FCK, thanks for allowing me to feel the true meaning of love or making me feel a certain way. 

Singh.